happy 1st birthday, kainoa

i didn't think i had room in my heart to fall in love again- that is until you came. this year has been a whirlwind with you, kainoa. from the time you were born , i knew i was about to have a special relationship with you. i can't believe how fast you have grown.
you were such an easy baby. labor was easy. your first night home was easy. you latched on so easy. you slept so easy. maybe because you were my second baby, maybe because you were a boy... but, i was more relaxed with you and able to enjoy you. waking up in the middle of the night wasn't a nuisance to me it was a joy. it was more time to spend with you, just you and mommy. i love holding you, making you laugh, kissing you, feeding you, playing with you. the saying is true, time flies when you are having fun.
my heart aches when i think of how fast this is all happening. i guess that's why i relish days when you cry for me. i know it wont last.
i have so many hopes and dreams for you as a boy growing to be a man. i know it's years away, so i'll slow down if you promise to do the same. with that, i'll just wish you a happy 1st birthday, my little man. i love you so much.